Well today has actually been a rather awkward day. I have been too thoughtful today. Not that being thoughtful is a bad thing, it is just it has made me lag and that’s not good. I am usually pretty good about rallying past things so it is just going to have to be one of those times. The issue is that I have never really had to rally past anything I really cared about. Most of the time when it came to it I really had stopped caring long before or simply shut it out in pursuit of the next thing. I must have ADD or something. However this is one of those times when rallying in my usual jovial and childish spirit would not be the best thing to do. If I do I will learn nothing and end up exactly at the beginning again. Also I don’t really want to rally past just yet, I think I want to learn as much as I can first and then see what the man upstairs wants to show me. Anyhow I had an interesting conversation last night, which really brought things home for me. Unfortunately I am really slow at understanding simple things, but I can grasp ridiculously complicated things quickly… odd gift. You know ever since I can remember I have known that I am not a patient person. I think that God is forcing me to be one because I am not wise enough to practice it so he is going cold turkey patience style. I am going to be patient and continue with the same plan I had before although the reasons have changed a touch I still think the whole thing is a good idea. I am sticking with it because I gave my word I would.
School has been fine, but I feel like I am not grasping what I should be. I feel more lost than I did last semester. I really like what I am reading and my professors are great but my comprehension of the material does not “feel” complete. I know what it is, I know what I have to do with it, but I walk away thinking I am missing something or that I am not grasping the big picture. Also this week I suffered one of the PC meltdowns that always happen when you need your PC. My PC decided to do something and not give me access to anything so I had to reformat which is unfortunate because I lost completed files that I had to work with. So that rather was junk. I am really, really tempted to go the Mac route. Anyone who knows me know that is a tough pill to swallow, especially for me because I don’t like one company controlling so much of your life, iPod, Podcasts, QuickTime the whole 9. But…that having been said, they are reliable…I probably will not get one because they are a touch to pricey for me and I cannot afford to take time to learn to use it while needing to use it, but we’ll see.
Golf was actually the best part of the weekend. I played a round on Sunday. I struck the ball well off the tee for the most part and played intelligent golf. However my touch on the greens was ridiculous. I was practically jabbing at every putt and forcing balls into the hole; definitely not exciting. I am kind of hoping summer comes around so I can play a few rounds during the week. I do not think I am going to be able to lower my handicap into the teens by May. I am trying but it is looking tougher, I just can’t string the whole thing together. I hit last night with a friend of mine. Conversation was interesting but I think I just see the world differently than he does. Also my driver was on fire… 80% of my shots were dead straight, hybrids were flying even with a slight draw at times and irons on target with a slight fade at the end. The only irons I was having trouble with was the 4 + 5 Irons which were going just not the distances that they usually do. I think it helps my swing that I was distracted and had my mind on other things so the muscle memory kicked in and just went through the swing.